Possibly with a drink or two? Please?
First, let me introduce myself. In the blogworld, I’m known as Lucky. I’m a 28 year old mostly stay at home mommy of my 14 month old sweetheart, Lovey.
I’m so corny, I had my hubby take that picture this morning. That and I had Lovey’s hair pulled up in a ponytail, and I wanted a picture of that.
So, before we stage an intervention for a certain someone lounging around Aruba, for heaven’s sake, I think I need one! Or two or five. Whatever. Someone has to shop, right?
My dilemma? I don’t know what I want to be. I love being able to stay home five days a week and experience all of Lovey. Sometimes, I envy those who have a career. I went to college. I got a Bachelor’s degree, in Psychology, but a degree nonetheless. I tried working in the field but wasn’t crazy(…haha, no pun intended) about it. I decided to go back to school taking pre-req’s for pharmacy school. It’s been a struggle. I absolutely hate science. I hate, hate, hate chemistry. I love people. Some days, I don’t even think I want to go to pharmacy school. I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything. I’ve moaned and groaned about this on my own blog
before. Honestly, I get tired of hearing “You should be proud of yourself” or “Don’t give up, you can do it”. But, what. What can I do? Some days I want to work more. Some days I don’t want to work at all. Some days I’m jealous of people and their new cars. Other days, I’m so thankful that the only debt we have is our home and my student loan. No car notes, no credit card bills. If I were to work more, maybe my hubby could get that Hummer he wants (the vehicle, get your head out of the gutter!)
So my question. How do you figure out what to do with your life? Do you look for a full time job in which you can build a career on? Would I regret that decision tomorrow? Would it benefit me and Lovey or would I miss too much? How do I find my happy medium?
Now, you need a drink, huh? Let’s just all go to Aruba and surprise MP!! Meet you there at 8:00!