Seriously

I am soooo over the snow.

My hunt for a Man..

Yeah… I know I’m not supposed to be looking for a man, but I am. I was having a conversation with a friend and I said that I don’t remember what my “type” is anymore. You meet a man and he’s charming and funny then all of a sudden he seems much more attractive.  I tend to wear “personality goggles”. So.. everywhere I go I am checking out men, wondering if I’m attracted to them before they open their mouth. What am I attracted to???

Bradley Cooper.

Yumm.. I mean seriously. You have a talented, funny actor..who can play good guys, bad guys, romantic comedy…drama. He’s the entire package, and he is not bad on the eyes. HOT..

Isn't he hot?

Anthony Bourdain

Yes, that IS me with him

I love his hair, his humor, his laugh. I could listen to him for 12 hours a day…. which I think I have before.. Thanks Travel Channel.

This does not really answer the question. These are men that are “famous” and I love their personalities.

I haven’t really looked at men for almost a dozen years. What do I think is hot?

I like the style

A man with a guitar.. Elvis Costello. I like the glasses, the hair.. the funky quirkiness. I’ve liked guys that remind me of him. Converse High Tops, a 1940′s style hat and a scarf.. Love it.

Dean Butler

You remember him as Manly on Little House On The PrairieI have always loved a red head. Dean Butler was one of my first crushes. Red hair, blue eyes. I was going to post a picture of Prince Harry but then I couldn't remember if he was legal or not.

Mmmm now our young Shia…

Don't you wish that was your number on his wrist?

I suppose I have always been attracted to bad boys. I was usually too smart for them …. I love the geeks, and I love the bad boys and Shia is the perfect combo.

I think that is it, I love dorks.. geeks.. especially with an edge of sexy, not too buff.

How about Brendan Hines. You ever watch Lie to Me? He needs glasses.  He’d be hotter if he had a receding hairline.

Geek Chic

Ok, I think I kind of defined what I find attractive. Now this isn’t all the time.  This is now. This is 44 year old me. Don’t get me wrong, Sean Connery is hot, Will Smith is hot,  Chris O’Donnell is hot; but I don’t gravitate toward their types. I’m not into old guys, black guys or boy next door sexy.

One last note, turn off the safe search, go to bing images and type in “hot geeks”.. I got distracted for a bit…geeze.

Thank you for going through this journey with me this afternoon

So…married, single..whatever. Do you have a type? I have defined mine as Sexy Geek.. I think.

The mind is the first to go .. right?

I have things to post.. stories to tell.. things to make you laugh.. things to make you say. .Aweee.. Now I’m sitting here typing and I got nothin.. I swear I have been living and breathing blog posts and now they have all escaped me.

So I’ll just tell you what I’m doing. I am sitting here sneezing my freaking head off. I don’t know if it’s allergy season or a cold. I read today in the local paper that this year is supposed to be worse than last year.. and last year was the worst year in 40 years.. well before then I didn’t have allergy problems. This is going to be an expensive spring/summer because even generic Walgreens or Wal-Mart D medicine gets expensive.. and the limit what you can buy since they thing you are a meth dealer. Here in Missouri. (#1 in meth labs.. woohoo) you have to give them your driver’s license and they register every time you sneeze.. or something like that. I really should just take a pill.. OK.. BRB… OK Back.. blew my nose, took a pill. Hopefully it will be a miracle and I’ll be better.. and not a stupid cold.

Pills.. speaking of. I need to take a multi vitamin.. I need to get into the habit. One thing I have started doing is taking a little melatonin every night. I notice that it helps me sleep sound and I wake up and don’t feel that horrible hung over feeling like if I drink NyQuil. They say it creates more vivid dreams.. not me. Last night was actually the first night I had a dream. (my friend and I were at a hotel near a casino in ohio or indiana or something.. and it WAS vivid)..

If you like fish taco’s and are short on time.. Go to Hardee’s.. OMG they are good!

American Idol: I’m good with Karen going home.. right now feeling the most love for Casey, James, Stefano and Pia.

Amazing Race: Loving this season!!

Survivor: Go Boston Rob!!

I have WordPress on my phone.. I’m going to start posting next time a brilliant post comes to mine.. I hate to deprive you so…  ;-)

Meme.. to lighten the air..

I’ve been sad.. worried.. pissed.. freaked.. and anyone reading it had to feel that.. SO.. lightening the mood a bit I thought I’d do a meme I found on the internet.. play along if you want to lighten the mood at your blog.
1. Make a list of 5 things that you can see without getting up:

The dog.. Jack is laying on a blanket licking his paws.

The TV, foodnetwork is on right now in front of me.. making me hungry.

The mantel.. my husband still has the lit garland up.. yes it’s March but he thinks it’s pretty.

My phone.. green light blinking.. must be unread emails.

Sunflower. Last year my husband bought me a 3foot sunflower magnet which is on the side of the fridge. He knows that is my favorite flower.

2. How do you style your hair?

I don’t. I wash it and blow dry it.
3. What are you wearing now?

Black sweat pants, a long sleeve orange Salty Dog Tshirt that I picked up at Hilton Head 2 years ago…and a Cardigan that I bought at the limited around 1990.. don’t judge..

4. What’s your occupation?

Inside sales.. although I have a fancy director title, I call bullshit.. pay and duties don’t equal my title.

5. What do you hear right now?

My fingernails on the keyboard and Diners and Drive Thru… Emeril is at a place talking about PoBoys..

6. Who was the last person you hugged?

My husband yesterday.

7. What is/was for dinner?

Garlic shrimp and penne.. yum.

8. What did you do today?

Drove to work in a freaking surprise snowstorm.. worked.. was busy as hell.. then came home.

9. Dog person or cat person?

Both..

10. If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?

Caroline

11. What was the last thing that you bought?

Jeans, Capri’s and 2 pair of underpants.
12. If you could afford to go anywhere in the world, where would you go?

I would do a couple things.. one is that I would buy a kickass RV and travel all around the US.. OR I would go back to Tuscany and Germany..

13. Where do you see yourself in five years?

I have no idea..

14. Where’s your birthmark?

I have beautymarks.. moles that I was born with.. one at the right corner of my right eye.. one below my right breast and one on the inside of my left arm near my elbow.

15. What are you doing this weekend?

Friday night we are going to go tennis shoe shopping for Drew.. no idea the rest of the weekend. Hopefully being productive.
16. Which book are you reading at the moment?

The Tenth Gift

17. The last movie you’ve seen?

Battlefield Los Angeles

18. What are you doing tomorrow?

Going to work

Spring Cleaning My Life

Well.. I got off my ass finally and got some things done. Had the conversation with the caregivers.. said things need to change, I’m going to be more involved in running my parents house. I don’t know why this has been so freaking scary for me, but it has been. I guess it’s huge.. well I know it’s a huge ass deal. I feel SO relieved I made that step.. I knew I would be. Procrastination? I’m not sure. The break I wanted wasn’t much of one since it was surrounded in guilt.

My friend I mentioned, I’m working on forgiveness.. not sure how that relationship will continue yet but at least I’m working on it in my heart.

I suppose I’m kind of doing a Spring Cleaning in my life.. It totally fits with the NoMoreExcuses..

It is difficult, like with Katrina, Haiti.. and now Japan.. it’s difficult watching what is going on in the world and still try to continue a daily life.. those people don’t have a choice, they are stuck taking help where they can, not able to mourn the loss of loved once as they struggle to survive themselves. I can’t feel guilty for not being a part of that though. I need to wish them well in my heart and hope they feel some peace. Who am I kidding, it has to just suck.. Ugg…I almost want to avoid the news.

Well I’m looking forward to tomorrow. I have things to do both in my life.. my heart.. my parents.. work.. etc. My husband hit a pick 4 in the lottery and is taking those winnings to start a small investment. I’m glad he’s able to do that.

In totally unrelated news: We saw Battlefield Los Angeles today.. I don’t think I breathed for 2 hours.. Fun action/war movie.. I highly recommended if you like that sort of movie.

 

 

Sick Day

I’m thinking of calling this a sick day. I feel OK now but have already thrown up once and have a head ache like none other.. Not sure if I should kick my own ass and just get things done or cuddle with the dog in bed and just clear out some of my dvr and then go 100% tomorrow. I haven’t decided yet.

My blog is holding me accountable..

I’m hiding.
I’m procrastinating.
I am NOT living up to my “nomoreexcuses” montage..
I have avoided my blog because it is now my friend, and it’s holding me accountable.

No.. I have let calls go to voicemail. I need to fire the in home care company.. and it’s family. I have to fire him before my parents go into the poor house. I need to do it by tomorrow….or Saturday.. I’m so fucking chicken shit. I HATE confrontation.

I also got hurt by a friend.. I never get hurt, i usually don’t allow myself to open up enough to get hurt.. I took a chance, first time in at least 12 years and I got hurt.. and I’m not dealing with that very well. I need to walk away but I haven’t. It would be a “death” and I’d have to mourn the loss of the friendship and in hurting this person it would hurt me again.. I don’t feel like dealing with that right now.

I feel like this part of the song Breath

2 AM and I’m still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it’s no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you’ll use them, however you want to

I need to pack and move. Seriously. Paycheck to paycheck is not flying at all. I need to get moving and live my life. This is way harder than I thought it would be.

Reading Blogs

I started reading blogs again. Not always commenting but I’m reading them. I’m not only reading the “old blogs” but reading fresh pressed and clicking links.

I am promising myself I wont’ get caught up in the blog world like last time. It’s about my personal journal, things I need to say, want to say or share. If someone else is reading it.. than great. If not I won’t die.

I read this post today and fell in love with it. I am a reader..

Like You Loved Me Then…music therapy

sometime you can’t find what you need to help you calm down and just breath.. usually music helps me..

Fences (via Just Ramblin')

What fences do you have? I sure know I have a few. I read this post this morning and realized these need to be torn down..

Fences. What are they really? Why do we have them? Are they for keeping things in or keeping things out? Are they always made of wood or are they built from emotions? Are they necessary? It really is about perception. How one perceives the need for keeping things at bay or allowing things to come close determines if they need fences. I know that I have an old, tired fence put in place to keep my children safe and my dogs safe. I put similar fence … Read More

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